Author: Adam Silvera
Publisher: Soho Teen
Release Date: June 2, 2015
In the months after his father's suicide, it's been tough for 16-year-old Aaron Soto to find happiness again--but he's still gunning for it. With the support of his girlfriend Genevieve and his overworked mom, he's slowly remembering what that might feel like. But grief and the smile-shaped scar on his wrist prevent him from forgetting completely.
When Genevieve leaves for a couple of weeks, Aaron spends all his time hanging out with this new guy, Thomas. Aaron's crew notices, and they're not exactly thrilled. But Aaron can't deny the happiness Thomas brings or how Thomas makes him feel safe from himself, despite the tensions their friendship is stirring with his girlfriend and friends. Since Aaron can't stay away from Thomas or turn off his newfound feelings for him, he considers turning to the Leteo Institute's revolutionary memory-alteration procedure to straighten himself out, even if it means forgetting who he truly is.
Why does happiness have to be so hard?
Feels! So many feels! I'm not even sure how many times I cried while reading this... But it was a lot! I can't believe it took me so long to read this. Let me describe what I think must be Silvera's writing process:
1) Think of something absolutely horrible
2) Make it even worse
3) No worse
4) Add a twist that makes it worse
I had this sitting on my shelves for a few months. Things just kept getting pushed ahead of it. But I can say without a doubt: This book is every bit as good as everyone says it is! How do I move on from this?
This book. I laughed. I cried (a lot). Aaron was lovable as the narrator. He's amusing and witty and his thoughts were hilariously dark at times. And he definitely portrayed death and depression perfectly. The plot was... amazing. Especially that twist. Which I did not see coming. And it just made things whoa. I don't want to saw much else about it, because it's best to just read it.
This book is amazing. I can't stop thinking about it. It's something everyone should read.